Wonder

As I sit here and wonder
What could have been
What went wrong
What I did
About what you said
Did you mean it
Did you really love me
Did it matter to you
I realize I don't believe
Don't trust
Don't know
Don't feel
Because I'm selfish
Scared
Unworthy
Hurt
I want to apologize
Cry
Love
Heal
For everything that I have done
Caused
Hated
Doubted
And I would like you to know
Trust
Feel
Believe
That I love you too